welcome to life on the edge

manic_depresso @ 2004-02-08T23:06:00

2004-02-08T23:16:56Z

jeez what a week. i'm not built for this sort of lifestyle. i *think* things are back to normal now. my parents are chilled, my sister is over herself. unfortunately we're getting a cat to cheer her up. i dislike cats. i think my poor doggy will be scared shitless by it.

oo yay claire is coming on holiday with me. how exciting!? we've got loads in common and we get along great so i just can't wait.

(jeez i'm such a loser)

1 more week of school to go. i've done naff all for ages and we've got a parents evening (wtf?) on wednesday. apparently i'm not working to my potential. typical.

i love that new incubus song. i was thinking about seeing them in manchester with lau but i'm not hXc enough. i wanted to see razorlight too but nic says i've missed it. the last gig i went to was back in december :(

i think i need to get out more in general. it's kate's 18th this friday :D should be alright! i might go to star after, not sure. i'm not a big drinker these days anyway. i can't afford it and i've got to watch the calories. besides under-age drinking was much more fun

manic_depresso @ 2004-02-04T20:45:00

2004-02-04T21:46:22Z

i went into leeds today to get some research done. talked to a bunch of small cd shops, asking them how they manage stock etc etc. i was surprised how willing they were to talk to me. i didn't know jumbo had been there for 30 years or so. hXc

my sister came back for a bit today. she's off again but at least we know where she is now. she's promised to start back at college so thats an improvement. my mum is feeling a lot better so thats great.

i've got a hair trim appointment tomorrow @ liberty point, the collingham one. how exciting! it's getting stupid and i need it cut back badly. my usual place has closed down (i think) so i hope these guys can do an equally amazing job.

hey pad i know things are tough for you right now, so if you want to talk i'm here 24/7
xx

manic_depresso @ 2004-02-04T00:12:00

2004-02-04T00:26:00Z

my sister has ran away. we don't know where she is. apparently she's with some mysterious guys. sounds great. she totally hates us all and the way she speaks to my dad is shit. she's quit 6th form and wants to get a job so she can move out or something like that. i wouldn't care too much but it's really cutting my rents up.

i've redone this whole journal thing. i think it looks better now. thanks ellie for getting me started! i haven't updated for a while either. maybe that'll change now i have a little more time. damn coursework and stupid history/politics hmwk take up an unhealthy amount of my time.

oo i'm going on holiday this half-term. center parks! i can't wait. i haven't been away for nearly 3 years. we used to go there all the time when i was a kid. so many memories!! i'll take my guitar and play a few tunes by the lake lol. scare the ducks.

i hear pad has flipped again. he had a break down during one of his singing lessons. shame

manic_depresso @ 2004-01-24T20:10:00

2004-01-24T20:22:48Z

i feel so warn out. these last 2 weeks have been shiit. i haven't had time to do anthing i want to. tonight i'm staying in to catch up :D i have a huge list of things i need to do.

i'm supposed to be going to machester uni next month but we're on holiday apparently. i have to ring admissions and tell them i'm stupid. the whole uni thing is still kinda scary, i don't think i'm ready for it yet. i want to be 16 again. careless and free.

help i still can't think of any musicalness. maybe it's cos i've been listening to blink 24/7 this week. i feel so bland and i hate it. it's not even a big deal. i guess i expect too much too fast.

oh happy birthday lau! i know what i'm gettin u now

manic_depresso @ 2004-01-22T21:26:00

2004-01-22T21:45:27Z

uh-oh i just had a big fall out with claire. i convinced her i have chronic bladder problems and she believed me. now she hates me :( eeek it's like our first big argument. i dunno whether to ring her back?? she thought i was serious lol

yay we have a new singer for saturday. she's cool apparently and now ryan won't have to sing. everyone is ice-skating tomorrow night (which sucks) so maybe i'll have some time to write. ooo no more exams too :D

omg i discovered funeral for a friend, franz ferdinand, the rapture and the von bondies are playing at leeds uni on monday february 2nd! i'm there. don't forget to vote for busted at the Brits - Call 09013 800 812 and press 4 (best pop act woo!)

manic_depresso @ 2004-01-20T23:34:00

2004-01-20T18:05:56Z

guitar sucks. i've got that sort of mental block that really gets me down. i'm anti-creative. my brain was been warped with these exams. i can't seem to come up with anything and when i do i just forget it, or when i play it a few days later it sound rubbish. i get really fustrated.

we've got band practise on saturday only our singer has joined another band. so no material and no singer. since our stand-in gig at the fenton in December we've done nothing. i want to get a proper band together, get some songs down do some gigs but it's just not happening.

the exam was rubbish. nothing like i expected. looks like i'll be resitting it in the summer so that's a downer. everyone says how easy business is so it just makes it worse when you fail.

it's our 2 month anniversary tomorrow. i've got a suurprise for her so maybe that'll be fun. tbh i'm not in the mood for all this romance stuff i just want to feel sorry for myself. i think we're watching Ghost so that's not helping things.

jeez i'm such a drag

manic_depresso @ 2004-01-20T00:06:00

2004-01-19T17:08:04Z

thanks probably to laura, ive started doing this journal thing at a really bad time ie on the eve of my business studies exam. uh-oh i have to do well or mr stevens will be mad :(

AS was pretty easy but this stuff is hard. i don't like hard things especially not of the exam kind. at least i get extra time thanks to retard hand-writing. oh i wish i could know what questions were on the paper the night before, that would be so useful.

its getting late and i don't feel tired. trainspotting was on last night so that kept me up late.. then school.. but yet.. no extreme tiredness. hey yeh i got the Morrisons job thing too. they didn't give me an acceptance form though stupid shop. i shall be working on checkouts, wednesday night and sunday daytime.

feel free to pay me a visit sometime in march